Craziness

Do you ever just sit down and think about your life, the events that have taken place and what your life / or what you'd personally be like, if those events didn't happen in the first place? Just think about it for a second. That thing you did when you were 16, the people you hung out with, the people you dated, the marks you got in high school, the activities you decided to join in on... what if they never happened? How would it have changed you if rather than dating Stephanie in 10th grade, you decided to date Amber? What if you smoked weed every day rather than attending singing classes? What would your life be like right now if you chose a different road? I think it's absolutely insane to think that I could be elsewhere, with someone else, doing something else if I hadn't met my fiancé. I wouldn't be the person I am today if I hadn't met him because before he came along, I was so clouded with self-doubt and self-hate. I was stuck in a small town, with friends that weren't really my friends to begin with. I was - as you'd call it - "down in the dumps". Then he came along (under some interesting circumstances) and although we didn't see eye to eye in the beginning and things were quite rocky for the first little while, we ended up falling madly and deeply in love with each other, bringing out the best in one another and becoming very happy. I couldn't ever imagine myself without him, and that's something that truly freaks me out. Do you believe things happen for a reason and all decisions in life are made to bring you closer to your true destination? Or do you think that fate isn't an actual thing and the decisions we make through out life aren't anything but exactly what they're called - decisions? I'm beyond happy where I am and hope that life continues to carry me on this journey. The journey that I am currently on. The absolute most amazing journey that I could have hoped for. What about yourself? Are you happy?