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Hey there everyone who's actually reading this...
Apparently I have had an account on this blog site for a while now... but I didn't know it? So I thought that since there was already an account on here, I would start posting and create a little blog for everyone to look at and follow my life! (because let's face it, it's exciting)
Yes, the life of a 22 year old female living in the smallest town you will ever come across -probably not the smallest, but one of them - who does nothing but make YouTube videos, hang out with friends and family, and watch movies/documentaries calls for the making of a blog dedicated to just that.... hmph.
Let me start off by telling you a little more about myself.
I was born in Scarborough, Ontario Canada but soon after I had turned 4 I moved to the town I am currently residing in (which I'm not going to post). I have lived here and been raised here my whole life... which is kind of a blessing in disguise. I wouldn't have met the amazing people that I did and wouldn't have great friendships. During my childhood days, things were peachy. Hung out with friends, ate bologna, raw hot dogs, caught frogs and bugs. You know, the average thing that kids do... I 'dated' boys and had my first kiss, lost friendships over the boy I had kissed, gained friendships over toys and such things that 5 and 6 year olds love. Got stung by a few bees here and there, enjoyed the odd Ninja Turtle board game, stole Stretch Armstrong toys off little boys that weren't home, pushed friends off of tree swings, broke their arm, hid behind the couch in hopes my Mother didn't find me because I didn't want to explain I had done it due to the words spewing out of a little boys mouth. My childhood was average.
My preteen years were a little more on the adventure end. I met some people in grade 7 that would change my life for the better, and some that would change my life for the worse. Lost my virginity the summer before grade 9 to a boy who clearly didn't care about me... but insisted he did. Shortly found out he was 'cheating' on me with all my friends. Who would have thought! And to this day, he remains to be the biggest player you will ever meet (not even that good looking either). High school was a shitty time. I began to have social anxiety, I didn't like being around people, talking to people, didn't like meeting new people or being around big groups of people. I started hanging out by myself, doing home work at my locker or eating lunch alone. My friends would constantly try dragging me around to go out for lunch, or just sit at the normal table and eat, but it just never happened. Don't get me wrong I loved my friends and there were the odd days when I'd actually sum up enough courage to take a walk somewhere and talk to people... but for the most part I really didn't feel like it.
As the years went on my social anxiety fluctuated. I did the whole party scene in grade 10 and 11, every weekend was literally a new adventure. I hung out with everyone during those two years and met new people in the process. I gained a lot of wonderful friendships, and party animal go-too'ers. I danced, I laughed, I drank myself to oblivion. At one point I almost killed myself consuming too much Jamaican Rum! That was a good time, now I can't even stand the smell of Rum, Whiskey, or Rye. I made mends with people I previously didn't agree with and had a good time doing it. I fell for a boy that I thought liked me too, but then I introduced him to a friend of mine at the time just to have them hit it off and began to see them flourish into a relationship. After a while, that friend got pregnant, my guy friend (whom was actually a great friend , and clearly a friend before she was) ended up not speaking to me anymore because this girl came between us... things all of a sudden fell apart. I started watching my social life slip between my fingers... and here comes my social anxiety once again!
Years and years pass.. been in and out of meaningless relationships, lost and gained friends that either didn't have the right to be in my life or had every right there is. Gained trust in many people that proved me wrong, loved and lost. Learned and grew from mistakes becoming a better person. Fell for someone super amazing when I was 20 years old, clicked off the bat, after a bit moved 3 hours from my family to be with him and things were amazing. After a year things unfortunately started falling apart. I soon moved back home, we broke up but are still friends, my hearts broken but slowly mending itself. Slowly becoming the person that I have always wanted to be and things are actually looking up. He helped me through a lot, helped me realized a lot, made me see myself as a beautiful young lady. And that's where I currently am.
Just a 22 year old girl making YouTube videos, hanging out with friends and family, watching documentaries and movies while living in a tiny little town full of people I dislike and others I love.
xo
Apparently I have had an account on this blog site for a while now... but I didn't know it? So I thought that since there was already an account on here, I would start posting and create a little blog for everyone to look at and follow my life! (because let's face it, it's exciting)
Yes, the life of a 22 year old female living in the smallest town you will ever come across -probably not the smallest, but one of them - who does nothing but make YouTube videos, hang out with friends and family, and watch movies/documentaries calls for the making of a blog dedicated to just that.... hmph.
Let me start off by telling you a little more about myself.
I was born in Scarborough, Ontario Canada but soon after I had turned 4 I moved to the town I am currently residing in (which I'm not going to post). I have lived here and been raised here my whole life... which is kind of a blessing in disguise. I wouldn't have met the amazing people that I did and wouldn't have great friendships. During my childhood days, things were peachy. Hung out with friends, ate bologna, raw hot dogs, caught frogs and bugs. You know, the average thing that kids do... I 'dated' boys and had my first kiss, lost friendships over the boy I had kissed, gained friendships over toys and such things that 5 and 6 year olds love. Got stung by a few bees here and there, enjoyed the odd Ninja Turtle board game, stole Stretch Armstrong toys off little boys that weren't home, pushed friends off of tree swings, broke their arm, hid behind the couch in hopes my Mother didn't find me because I didn't want to explain I had done it due to the words spewing out of a little boys mouth. My childhood was average.
My preteen years were a little more on the adventure end. I met some people in grade 7 that would change my life for the better, and some that would change my life for the worse. Lost my virginity the summer before grade 9 to a boy who clearly didn't care about me... but insisted he did. Shortly found out he was 'cheating' on me with all my friends. Who would have thought! And to this day, he remains to be the biggest player you will ever meet (not even that good looking either). High school was a shitty time. I began to have social anxiety, I didn't like being around people, talking to people, didn't like meeting new people or being around big groups of people. I started hanging out by myself, doing home work at my locker or eating lunch alone. My friends would constantly try dragging me around to go out for lunch, or just sit at the normal table and eat, but it just never happened. Don't get me wrong I loved my friends and there were the odd days when I'd actually sum up enough courage to take a walk somewhere and talk to people... but for the most part I really didn't feel like it.
As the years went on my social anxiety fluctuated. I did the whole party scene in grade 10 and 11, every weekend was literally a new adventure. I hung out with everyone during those two years and met new people in the process. I gained a lot of wonderful friendships, and party animal go-too'ers. I danced, I laughed, I drank myself to oblivion. At one point I almost killed myself consuming too much Jamaican Rum! That was a good time, now I can't even stand the smell of Rum, Whiskey, or Rye. I made mends with people I previously didn't agree with and had a good time doing it. I fell for a boy that I thought liked me too, but then I introduced him to a friend of mine at the time just to have them hit it off and began to see them flourish into a relationship. After a while, that friend got pregnant, my guy friend (whom was actually a great friend , and clearly a friend before she was) ended up not speaking to me anymore because this girl came between us... things all of a sudden fell apart. I started watching my social life slip between my fingers... and here comes my social anxiety once again!
Years and years pass.. been in and out of meaningless relationships, lost and gained friends that either didn't have the right to be in my life or had every right there is. Gained trust in many people that proved me wrong, loved and lost. Learned and grew from mistakes becoming a better person. Fell for someone super amazing when I was 20 years old, clicked off the bat, after a bit moved 3 hours from my family to be with him and things were amazing. After a year things unfortunately started falling apart. I soon moved back home, we broke up but are still friends, my hearts broken but slowly mending itself. Slowly becoming the person that I have always wanted to be and things are actually looking up. He helped me through a lot, helped me realized a lot, made me see myself as a beautiful young lady. And that's where I currently am.
Just a 22 year old girl making YouTube videos, hanging out with friends and family, watching documentaries and movies while living in a tiny little town full of people I dislike and others I love.
xo
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